Your adversarial outcomes are not your enemies.The moments that you think you are relentlessly suffering is the beginning of spiritual growth since prayer is an antidote for feaful behaviors and fretfulness.
“For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, love and self-discipline” (2 Timothy 1vs.7)
If you know anything about poverty like myself you are going to quickly realize that it commands us to appreciate the invisible qualities. While growing up I thought I lived in a world that was lacking, a world that did not provide in great abundance, but my immature thoughts were my misguided compass. Now when I sit in my one score and almost ten, I can richly reflect on the wealth of abundance that was enough to gratify my normal needs, but my blurry vision could not see this. From my vantage point, I now have the opportunity to reconstruct my old stories and somehow find the value in what at one point rendered my days “distressfully comforting” and “undelightfully positive”.The different lens that I am now looking through has allowed me to come to the realization that my mother gave me a world of abundance, which begs the question of who gave birth to “the you are not enough syndrome”? She introduced us to Christ.You can only give to your children what you have, so my mother gave to her children what she genuinely had and the only thing she had was spirituality that was guiding her path. I am now able to see this as sufficient, daring to use my lens of motivation and clarity.
“If any of you lack wisdom, he should ask God who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him” (James 1vs.5)
Through the introduction of Christ I learnt how to have faith. This faith was occasionally “wishy washy” as Jamaicans would say, but it grew stronger as I developed a relationship with God.This relationship was created through the process of prayer. In my humble opinion, prayer is a motivational powerful language within itself. It strips you of your very clothes, ego, accolades, academic qualifications and presents you with a spiritual self-governed qualification. It allows you to respect and accept people of different faith because our vision of God should not be limited by our own environments and experiences. It allows you to live in “peaceably chaos” even when opposed by darkness. It clearly reprogrammes the subconscious but how?
“And be not conformed to this world: but be he transformed by the renewing of your mind, that he may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God” (Romans 12 vs.2)
Start by having a one way conversation with God away from any form of noise pollutions. If you have a problem, emotional burden or fear, start by identifying and describing it. At no point should you be timid, since it is like privately talking to your therapist.The difference is God is not a physical being so you don’t have to worry about judgements. You can say anything to Him as the song writer commands, “Leave it there, leave it there! Why don’t you leave your burdens there? Just take your burdens to the Lord and leave it there.” By “there” the song writer means the spiritual altar. Keep in mind you cannot go back for your problems after you have placed it at the spiritual altar.
“”Cast your cares on the Lord and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous fall”. (Psalms 55 vs 22)
By placing your burden at the spiritual altar, you will come under a number of questions from Christ, but you should not view this as an attack. Let us just say for example you currently reside and work in a place that is under attack by a dark force, you are extremely fearful and need actionable results or let us say you want help from God in healing your son/daughter or a particular family member from an illness and you are awash with unknown fear. God is going to ask you to examine your fear. He might go as far as to ask you if it is real and to touch yourself to see if you exist even while being driven by the ongoing fearful thoughts. At this point you are going to realize that your activated fearful thoughts are unreal, deceptive, useless, and crippingly negative.
“Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.” ( Joshua 1 vs.9)
Living in a fearful mind serves to disempower the source of solutions. In essence, having that constant dialogue with God after you have placed your problems at the altar is a necessity. Mind you, this will be hard if you do not make an attempt to solidify a relationship with him. This holds true for a relationship with your partner,spouse or lover which did not solely develop with a walk in the park or that one time when you spread roses all over the apartment. It requires constant communication and commitment. These are the same ingredients that we must apply here for the reason that the constant nurturing dialogue with Him is needed to push the relationship forward.
“And without faith it is impossible to please Him, for whoever would draw near to God must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who see him”. (Hebrews 11 vs. 6)
We are now at the mind-blogging stage of prayer where you might find that you do not get everything that you pray for even after developing a nurturing relationship with Him. Please do not get weary and frustrated. Yes, for certain Grace has given us free will to request what we think we desire and more often than not our free will does not align with God’s higher order. Be mindful that He is our Father. The role of parents and educators is to place a protective layer over children’s lives, and question their decisions on matters related to directions that they desire to go in while sooner than later might provide a sense of redirection where necessary. The same is true of our Father, he guides, he protects, he redirects.
“I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you with my eye upon you”. (Psalms 32 vs. 8)
Over the years, this is what I realize about praying, you will not be immediately presented with the tangible if He knows that you are not ready. As a child I dreamed of the Jamaican dream of living in an exquisitely waterfront, modern, luxurious 6 bedrooms, 8 bathrooms townhouse that would be situated in a well sought after neighborhood such as Cherry Gardens. Ha!Instead, my God surmised that taking great care of such a dream requires several invisible qualities that I did not have, so he erected opportunities for me to work in demanding, taxing, burdensome environment that hardly provided personal space to assist in developing my invisible qualities. Having a big family with an oversized house can become demanding, burdensome, and might not provide personal space. I steadied my camera and zoomed in on the big picture! You are given opportunities to develop perseverance and courage under your difficult situations to get you ready for your next journey.
“And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to His purpose”. (Romans 8 vs. 28)
My evolving life has now brought me to the point to realize that there is a spiritual message in all of the postive and negative experiences on this my humanly fragile journey.Prayer has allowed me to discover my own evolution, inner self, and process of healing since we all have a story. What I have prayed for in prayer cannot be touched, but the perseverance, passion, commitments, strength, ambition, purpose, love, patience, insight, power, authenticity, stillness, empathy, wisdom, willingness to wholeheartedly give to those placed in my care and other invisible qualities are not just based on my own doing by God himself, so no longer do I operate under my order, but His order. It is possible for my words and order to be chained, but Paul from prison reminds Timothy that,
“This is [his] gospel, for which [he] is suffering even to the point of being chained like a criminal.But God’s word is not chained.” (Timothy 2 vs. 8-9)